you’re doomed, then.

Do a shot of vinegar. Works every time.

Malazan / Discworld.

Just about any pair of characters would be amazing.

NPD and BPD are both driven by an eternal sucking void of insecurity and negative self-esteem that can never be filled.

Narcissists try to fill it with praise and social status, or failing that, power and subjugation.

Borderlines try to fill it with limerence and victimhood or failing that, revenge.

But it can’t ever be filled - it’s worse than addiction, worse than being underwater in some shitty MLM scheme. It takes and takes and takes because fuck you, pay me.

So they don’t have friends or loved ones, they have hosts. They suck out all the goodness until there’s nothing left to give, then they start in on the pain.

Assholes, in the other hand, are just driven by simple greed, callousness and lack of consideration. They can and do still hurt people of course, but it’s not an all-consuming obsessive need.

May I suggest that you don’t get a job in IT?

Probably about 5-10 minutes most of the time.

Your brain chatters to itself all the time, so if you stfu with the inner monologue and instead just try to eavesdrop on what’s going on in the background, that leads pretty much directly into a dream state.